If you choose to follow a 12 step program or any program with substance, you are going to have to come to terms with the fact that you are not in control.
Step One if fully accepted, lived and understood should leave you in a dark corner. Okay, so I’m not in control of my addiction. My obsessiveness and compulsion to use is larger and more powerful than I am. My decisions and choice making abilities are disabled when it comes to addiction. The addiction always wins.
So now what ? Step Two is what !
I need something greater and more powerful than I am to help me stay clean (sane). In my humble opinion, I can’t go onto Step Three unless I fully understand this concept. What am I going to hand my will and life over too? To a tree ? Or a coffee mug ? You might laugh but I’ve literally heard people say those things.
I need to get real about my understanding.
Every time I hear an old timer speak they highlight one section more than any other. God could do for us what we could NOT do for ourselves. They don’t say maybe we couldn’t do for ourselves or sometimes couldn’t do for ourselves. Not is used for a reason, that reason being Step One.
If your like me, left to my own devices I have a mind that always takes me back to a bag of dope. Left to Gods devices I will be granted with serenity, peace of mind and freedom from active addiction. Pretty simple choice to me, when I fully accept my powerlessness.
Here is Step One, Two and Three in a nutshell.
Step One – I can’t.
Step Two – He can.
Step Three – So let him.
I know there are many people out there that will have a problem with the word God, but keep in mind. It’s the God of YOUR understanding. You don’t have to believe in my God or believe in the God that I understand. There is a whole chapter dedicated to people who don’t or won’t believe in the idea of God, in the bigbook. Check it out, find out how you will get off your high horse and surrender to something powerful, loving, fair, honest and compassionate because believe me when I say this. YOUR LIFE DEPENDS ON IT.